No more smiles left to smiles, I can only wear a frown.
It is so hard to let everything go,
When all you can do is sit and say, 'no.'
I've been wondering, if I saw you in Heaven above,
Would you look like you used to, or would you look like a peaceful dove?
Should I let my spirit fly away, and soar all the way up to you,
Oh, I am so confused right now, I have no idea what to do.
Are you really here with me, or is it my dream,
This is more like a nightmare because after I see you, I feel I have to scream.
And then, depression sets in, and life is all flipped around,
And yet in my heart, I know you'd never want to see me down.
I love you so much, my heart hurts sometimes,
A song plays and I fall apart, reminding me of you and the good times.
But there's no place left to hide from this.. no place left at all,
I feel lightheaded, as if I'm going to fall.
It scares me that I'm used to you being gone, before you even are,
And yet I remember the yesterdays that don't seem very far.
I saw you as a miracle, that found its way to help me,
I see you as a love I've lost and now a memory.
I'll fall asleep tonight, thinking of you,
Then I'll wake up tomorrow, and call your house, just like I used to.
Seems like no one realizes what we had, I guess it was one of those things between you and me,
My heart skips a beat, then throbs because, to my heart, you were the key.
Oh, I love you so,
But.. this is all part.. of letting go."
-Lauren Simpson